Reflecting on 2014... Part 2...

There is a quote that the most important things cannot be seen but felt... So very true... Especially all the feeling of happiness, which keep you in a state of euphoria... 

Friendships

- I went on my first trip with my friend, Amanda (I call her the Blond bombshell) to Margate, where I had a great time with wonderful people, but I also met my boyfriend and we realised that our first impressions of each other were quite incorrect (actually far off).

- I have made new friends, within the world of fitness, technology, competing, fashion and marketing. I Love, love, love that I meet people (with whom I became friends with) whom I can get along with easily, even though we are in such vast industries and some friends I have met are across the ocean!

- Super excited that I am part of Team Extreme!!! I absolutely Love my coach WBFF Pro Louise. I met her for coffee, and it simply felt like I was home again! The team of girls are amazing, which is a bonus to being in this competitive fitness industry.

Friends are like family... they are the family you choose... as with anything in life, you have to work on your friendships and keep the communication open. 

My Relationship... My MayMay

I experienced my first "real" relationship, which was the longest in my life. YES ITS TRUE!!!
I remember being very cautious... and then one date turned into many, until the last dinner. (That sounds so biblical)

The experience was amazing ... 
(However, you know me... i could always step everything up a notch... Perhaps time was not on my side... and I believe that a crucial element has to be part of the relationship, two people ready to give up the past, excuses, logic and 'Just Do It"... and then once that "honeymoon stage" is over, then the comfortable part set sin and then it requires some work)

I have never met anyone who listens, understands and hears music quite like this man... (Have you ever had a song haunt you? Music you never thought you would love? Well i'm being haunted by this one song and I have no idea what it's called... crazy! I love all music, sometimes Italian music, pretty much anything i can dance or train to; and here in my head is Anberlin, and that other song that was in my head ... lol)

He is the most honestly frank person I have ever met, sometimes it scared me to have an opinion but I always loved that I could ask ANY question and have an honest unusual answer.

We proceeded on an interesting and amazing (short lived) journey, exploring worlds that were different to our ideas of "normal"
(Who wants to be normal anyway? if i could describe him in one word...  "labyrinth")

Things he said... which made me laugh then and look back and smile...
        1. It scared him how much I eat?! I love it! YES... Fit healthy Chicks eat..  A LOT! Although i did cry at one of our lunches... silly me! (Well ... I will admit on my cheat day I could eat more than him... its funny but so bad)
        2. I am a breath of freash air... I am full of energy... (heard that a few times) Im just not everyone breath of fresh air... CORRECT!
        3. I am a Bitch! Why, THANK YOU! Yes ladies... its a complement...
        4. I sent him my before pic and it freaked him out... (maybe that was not a good idea!)
        5. At out last dinner, which was probably the closest to romantic as he could be...    
             "You surprise me..." we were having the most interesting, break up conversation and I laughed and smiled and thought...Absolutely!
        6. The most amazing thing was having a burger after my competition (I was so confused and dehydrated... shame for him) and he made me omelette's for dinner (he makes the best ones, as well as really crispy bacon and pork sausages)

Did we both commit fully? Were we simply interested in a relationship becuase we were intrigued? Why did we not start with a semi-friendship? 
Ai yai yai... questions cannot always be answered... I say let's leave this to God and The Universe....

However; we had the most beautiful interesting break up... (That is an oxymoron of the best kind! wink!)
Don't get me wrong, I do have a heart, and as wonderful as the entire process was as with most sad situations... I understood the meaning of tears streaming down my face, just one tear and then an ocean of emotions.... a storm raging inside me, not knowing whether to scream, cry or laugh.
Then there is the anger that follows, anger mainly because you would think after having a relationship, and wanting to be friends, I would have received a really amazing Christmas or New Year message. (Knowing I am Unique and not like most girls... thats was the only irritating thing... Not really understanding how unique, special and unlike other females I am) Oh well... such is life!

After those emotions of confusion, like a ranging storm, with hail, then you see the beautiful rainbow and the sun...
I am smiling for the experience of being apart of someone's life, for the adventure of so many new experiences, the enthusiasm of so many new opportunities and the most important part ... well thats my secret to keep as certain parts of relationships should all be kept between the people within the relationship.

                "Magic ...  Madness...  Heaven ...  Sin..."

My brother passed away...  This was a shock! 

This was a shock to everyone who knew my brother. The funeral was huge, he has touched and changed so many lives...

Have you ever listened to a motivational speaker, or Nickelback? They say, "if today was your last day", what would you want people to say at your funeral?

Remember that a funeral should also be a celebration of the life you have lived... 

So we have to ask "What LEGACY are we leaving behind?" 

Well, my brother touched so many lives, that his funeral was huge, and as sad as the situation is... HE left an impact on so many lives. We have gained another older brother, and a few more friends, who will share his memory and keep him alive for eternity.

Since then I have been asking myself if I am truly living my life? The Life i planned? My goal has always been to inspire lives... and so far I have!
I have studied to mu hearts content and I will always be doing research to learn more and expand my horizons. 

I am proud to say, that I receive so many messages about how I have inspired others. So i know I haev truly found my life purpose... I also had the privaledge of meeting so many people who inspire me.

Sometimes people are so inspired that they totally transform, and then they forget to say thank you. However, I know whose lives I have touched, this simply gives me an opportunity to carry on and take my goals up more than a notch!

No one likes funerals, but his funeral and the passing on of my brother has certainly taught us life lessons. Lessons about not taking time or people for granted, about really going for your goals and dreams and not letting anyone stand in your way or hold you back.

The last part of my year, was quite shocking and emotional.

We did, however have the best celebration, Nicole's 30th Birthday. All our family and friends we love were all there... So much love!

Because I love my sister more than life itself, we have been through so much and she means the world to me and to have such an amazing, supportive family and friends around us, made me realise as sad as the passing of my brother was; we have learned amazing lessons which we should have realised before he passed away.

Here is to another year filled with Love, Happiness, Success, Gratitude, Prosperity... and may this year be everything you dreamed of when you were a little child, unafraid, and had hopes and dreams that no one could destroy....

Always Maylene